constant change

I resent change; having my carefully assembled pieces thrown into chaos. Dislike anything that causes this delicate balance to tilt precariously (i'm a libra...duh). Yet more often than not, i find myself on the receiving end of such predicament. Flustered- desperately picking up the pieces of my broken puzzle. Trying, no doubt in vain, to regain this balance before the next wave comes toppling over.

I realise i need a foothold; a constant. Something that i can be sure of that wouldn't succumb to this 'changing' madness. A float keeping me abreast so i wouldn't drown in this tidal storm. God i hope i find it before i descend into depression and ruins.

Being alone sets me pondering. And i was alone the whole day. Go figure.

Spend most of my morning reading New Moon. Went BBDC in the afternoon to apply for my PDL. Had to queue for an hour and a half but never mind, i'm one step closer to getting my driver's license. Can't wait to finally settle in the driver's seat (:
A sudden downpour in the evening put me off my plans to go running. At the rate its going, i'm gonna pile on faster than i can say "i'm growing fat".

I'm resentfully 19. One more year and i'll hit the big 2! tell me its not happening. A BIG thanks to everyone who has played a part- ALL well wishes(verbal and text); wall notes; phone calls; birthday cards- you've all made my birthday a happier one(:
thanks bw, zoe and mad for putting in the effort to msg at 12 midnight;
mad and becca for the treat at suki and becca for the personalised card- wasn't expecting anything, definitely a pleasant surprise;
ya mon for the call all the way from australia. you're the best!! sorry i couldnt recognise your voice over the phone(:
kes for the bitch call the very night;
and jeanna for remembering even when you're sick. tC

Celebrated my birthday with mad and becca at Orchard. Got treated to suki buffet (my first time). Have to say that its better than sakae, albeit the price. Watched a really bad movie- Burn after Reading -on mad's suggestion. LOL it wasn't her fault.

That's the second consecutive movie i watched that really sucked which kinda...well suck. The first was with kester- 20th century boys. i've been watching waaay too many movies recently for my own good. i'm supposed to be saving money for my overseas trip this yr end. we've gotta stop turning to movies as the only other alternative for recreational activities. i've watched House Bunny, Painted Skin, 20th Century Boys, Burn after Reading and Connected in the past two weeks or so. my gosh...thats a lot of money.

Anyway, i've decided to have lots of aims to distract me from my apparent misery serving NS. Hopefully time passes faster with a list of things to achieve.